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Monday, February 13, 2017

Stay the Course



I don’t do anything halfway, but sometimes it doesn’t matter.  Sometimes, even when you put everything you can and everything you are into something, it still doesn’t work out.  But friends, I really stink at rejection. 

I saw a quote the other day that went like this:

“The woman who does not require validation from anyone is the most feared individual on the planet.” -Mohadesa Najumi

Of course, I loved it immediately; because that’s the kind of person I want to be.  Heck, sometimes I even embody this.  But I knew I couldn’t claim to be this person, today, because within moments of reading the rejection letter that crossed the screen in front of my eyes, I was looking at another message, from one of my dearest friends, which read, “I love you.  You’re enough.”

And let’s be real, if your closest friends respond like that, it’s because they know how very, very badly you need the validation.

So, quite honestly, I’m sitting here tonight weighing the risks of vulnerability.  There is a deep part of me that knows I would benefit from a crushing hug and as many words of affirmation as the people who know me best could offer.  Seriously, hundreds of thousands of words would be helpful.  But I am also terrified that any degree of human contact might cause me to shatter into so many pieces I will never be able to pick them all up again.  And it absolutely comes from feeling as if I am not enough.  Because today, I wasn’t.

It’s only been a few days since I blogged and assured the Internet world that I was going to be OK, one way… or another… or another…  And I am.  But I suddenly can’t remember what ‘Plan B’ was.  I think I need permission to fall apart for just a little while.

I put an awful lot of myself into ‘staying a course’ that no longer exists.  The road has shifted underneath my feet, and I need a minute to forge a new path.  Just a minute…

L.

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

1-4-17



Some Things I Loved About Today...

1. My breakfast smiled at me.
2. Having coffee at my favorite local coffee place…
2a. with one of my favorite people…
2b. while totally rocking my unicorn laptop and tie-dye tennis shoes.
3. Finishing the rough draft of my manuscript!!!!!
4. Returning home briefly to get the whole family packed for the next adventure… which includes being bowled over by Caleb and Miah, at the door…

This Verse:

“And who knows whether you have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” (Esther 4:14b, ESV).




 L.

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

1-3-17




Some Things I Loved About Today...

1. Making a new stick family (since many of us have recently been beheaded on the back of the Nazarene Limousine)…
2. Putting together a few more sharable safety pins. If you need one, I have plenty. Apparently creativity appeals today...
3. Writing… and writing… and writing… (My latest work has reached enough words to be classified as a novel, but I’m not quite finished. Perhaps tomorrow the rough draft will be ready.)

This Quote (So timely…):

“Never annoy an inspirational author or you will become the poison in her pen and the villain in every one of her books.” –Shannon L. Alder

This Verse:

Genesis 28:15 “I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”




Monday, January 2, 2017

1-2-17



Some Things I Loved About Today...

1. My January soul care days have begun.  Today I wrote a rule of life for 2017 and began the process of being renewed and refreshed, planning, and vision casting.  
2. I may have accidentally booked a room that is better than I expected.  The price was right, so I went with it.  I think there may be less than four occupied rooms in this entire hotel, which is sort of weird, but I’m rolling with it.
3. Breakfast…  I am hesitant to post the picture, because it’s actually a little embarrassing, but I would like to justify this plate of food by explaining that I knew it was also going to be lunch and dinner when I brought it back to the room, this morning.
 
4. Bubbles in the whirlpool bath.  Yes, I know you’re not supposed to do this.  No, I couldn’t stop myself to save my life.  I never learn.  
5. My new eye mask that can be worn *with* my glasses.  Just a note, the warning on the package about not heating these things up for more than 15 seconds, in the microwave, is solid advice…

This Quote (oddly enough, by a fictional wizard):
 
“It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live, remember that” – J.K. Rowling, Dumbledore

These Verses:

Psalm 20:4, “May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed” (NIV).
Hebrews 11:11 “… because she considered him faithful who had made the promise” (NIV).




L.

Sunday, January 1, 2017

Start Again...

Some Things I Loved About Today...

1. Ringing in the New Year with My Family
2. 'Borrowing' Seth's R2-D2 hat, without getting caught
3. Spending time with my dad and Grace: A second look at "Rogue One," eating at Big Boy, and gift card shopping
4. Taking my first elevator selfie of the year
5. Realizing that I have made no promises to take less selfies in 2017


These Verses:

Number 6:24-26, “The LORD bless you and keep you; the LORD make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the LORD turn his face toward you and give you peace” (NIV).

Ecclesiastes 3:12, “I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live.”




L.

Saturday, December 24, 2016

Saturday, December 17, 2016

Rogue One Spoilers...

It seems that there is some interest regarding how I felt about Rogue One.  I have done very little movie reviewing as of late, and this is going to be relatively short and surely not comprehensive.  There are spoilers.  So, seriously, if you don't want to read any spoilers, close this tab right now.  I do not want to be responsible for anyone's ruined movie going experience...

SPOILERS COMING...  This is your last chance to turn back...




*I'll start with this, because it won't spoil the movie, just in case you're still accidentally reading.  Our biggest issue, as a family, was the voluminous number of inappropriate previews.  We almost always go to MJR, but this was an AMC.  We are incredibly careful about what our kids see, and the previews (22 full minutes of them) were worse than any movie they have ever seen.  Super frustrating.

*Apparently there was a ton of re-filming for this movie.  They did not even use the "I rebel" scene from the trailers, and I was incredibly disappointed about that.  I mean, I bought an "I rebel" t-shirt.  Seth says it is now obsolete...

*The story line was basically good, but it was a true war story.  They did a masterful job of connecting it to episode IV, but it had a much darker feel than most of Star Wars.  Along those lines, I did think it was an incredible testament to the cost of war, and that's something we don't always see in entertainment media.  So, I appreciated that.  

*Everybody dies.  Star Wars fans should have been prepared for this, but somehow I didn't consider that this would be necessary for the plot to be consistent with episode IV.  It threw me a little bit.  The story, itself, was not developed enough to create deep emotional attachment to the characters (you just can't do that in a couple of hours), but it was a little shocking by the end, when I realized no one was going to survive.  It took me awhile to process.

*It's definitely not a movie for small children.  Historically, I am conservative in my assessment of appropriate age levels, but I would not have been comfortable viewing this film with anyone younger than Caleb (age 12, and he was with us).  Even then, you have to know your kids.  My oldest two would not have been ready for this movie at twelve.

*Final scene with Princess Leia?  Well, yeah... awesome!

Alright, that's all for now...  May the Force be with you...

L.